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Imaginary Friend

The first day we met, you’re the centre of attention;
I’m behind everyone else, invisible.
You’re smart, earnest, flawless, with all the patience;
Who am I? Just a lost girl, alone in the jungle.

How do I look straight into your eyes?
When you try to explain something to me,
They are the widest night sky;
With stars, they glow, reflected by the deepest sea.

That day you kissed me, unexpectedly.
It felt so warm, I couldn’t breathe
With your touch, your scent; but I ran away hastily.
Because I couldn’t believe.

After an eternity, you were holding my hands,
Telling me you’re not letting me go after all we’ve shared.
My tears were shed; you said you just need one chance,
To prove that I don’t have to be scared.

Now that we’re finally together,
You’re real, your heart no longer scends;
Except that, in “happily ever after”,
I am the imaginary friend.


Written on 15th November 2013.
Can you believe one year and a half have passed already?

Cageless Sky: Once Upon a Heart

I hear the wind rustling
As I try to protect her from afar.

Strong and brave,
Determined and independent,
Fearless and protective;
That’s how she seems.
Yet underneath the short sandy blonde threads,
Beyond the dark blue eyes of the calm night sky,
Loneliness, sorrow, pain,
Are what I see.

“Watch out!” I shout as I throw myself in front of her,
Hold her tight in my arms as we both fall onto the pavement.
Skin is burning at my forearms and elbows;
Blood slowly trickles from my wounds;
But I can’t stay.
I run and run and run
Till I’m sure she has lost sight of me;
Till I’m sure she can no longer find me.

I hide in a dark alley,
“Forgive me.”

Gauze wrapping around my arms;
Her words echo in my mind as I close my eyes.
“…Who are you?”
I’m just a raindrop who didn’t know what purpose I carry onto this world;
Until you struck my heart like a lightning.
With that flash of light,
I was reborn.
Reborn on this land, to protect you.

If only I could take away your burden,
The destined path which you didn’t choose;
If only I could walk through the thorny forest for you,
And return the future that you want, the dream that is deprived from you, into your hands.

Once upon your burdened heart.

I try to run away, but this time, it’s too late.
“Don’t leave.
Don’t run away like last time.”

Her voice is an arrow that shoots right through me.

“I know who you are.”

How naive of me,
To believe as long as I kept myself in the dark,
She would never find out.

Look up at the sky,
Is this the end already…

“You’re my guardian angel.
You have been watching over me,
Trying to protect me, haven’t you.”

“I’m too broken to be called an angel.
I’m sorry.”
There’s no turning back now;
I can only walk away, as far as I can;
Otherwise, my tears will fall.

Her sudden grip on my wrist.
The first drop of crystal along the silhouette of my face.

“Then, I don’t need an angel.”

Her arms on my waist;
Her chin resting on my shoulder.
Her warmth is flowing into me from behind;
Her hug is so tight, I can feel her heart pounding against mine.

As the wind gently brushes our cheeks in this golden sunset,
Our strands of hair are entwined.
Just like our lives.

“I just need you.”


Written on 13th October 2014; second installment in the trilogy.


Prequel: Once Upon a Time

Cageless Sky: Once Upon a Time

Darkness.

I saw darkness wherever I go.
My only companion, was the shadow that falls behind me.

There was no dream in my mind.
There was no hope that I could find.
There was no light in my eyes.
There was no love in my life.

Paralyzed by fear,
Suffocated by tears,
Drowned by despair,
Incinerated by self-hatred,
Shattered by pain.

Soulless.

I belonged to darkness.
My only choice, was imprisonment in the cage I built; I was my own slave.

Have dream or not, why should it matter.
Hold on to hope or fall apart, why should it matter.
Light or dark, why should it matter.
Be loved, or remain unloved, why should it matter.

Life, death. Why should I persist.

Meaningless.

I was blind.
Until the day I saw her.


Written on 8th October 2014; first installment in the trilogy.

A Dream

On a wintry January night, I had a dream
Of you and me, of us asleep.
Your hand’s on my waist, I hear you breathe;
Holding my teddy bear, I feel your heartbeat.
Our hearts are connected, not skipping a beat.
I want to open my eyes, and watch you sleep;
But if I do so, this scene may flee;
Then I’ll wake up, from this dream that makes my heart bleed.


Written on 1st February 2014.

A small lamp left on, casting a warm, intimate glow.

Numbers (or, Denary)

If I could draw, I’d paint a hundred portraits of you;
If I have a camera, I’d take a thousand pictures of us;
If I can reach them, I’d spell out your name with a million little stars;
If you love me, I’d love you ten lifetimes;

But there’s only one reality,
And in this reality, your one and only isn’t me.


Written on 2nd February 2014.

Crush

4.36 pm         We’re walking on the pavement,
Both are quiet because of what just happened.
The story was told, the story of sentiments;
You were speechless, couldn’t utter a sentence.

4.37 pm         A car is swerving.
“Watch out!” People are screaming.
We look behind us, the vehicle is clashing;
I push you away, but the sky is dimming.

4.39 pm         “Stay with me. Don’t fall asleep,” you say.
I’m stuck between the car and the brick wall, “I’m sorry, I didn’t think it’d end this way.
I want to tell you the three words I meant to say…”
“You can say them after you recover.” “Then please hold my hand, so I don’t slip away…”

5.09 pm         Bright light is shone at my eyes, blinding.
Blink once, a paramedic, I can’t hear anything;
Blink again, I turn my head to the right, you’re tearing.
Darkness. The last thing I feel, is our hands, holding.

The next day “…because I promised her I won’t let her go, won’t let her slip away.” Distant conversations.
I’m sleepy, couldn’t open my eyes due to exhaustion.
“Sleep, my child. Don’t have to wake up.” God’s proposition,
But the warmth felt by my hand anchors me on Earth, my heart’s salvation.

The 7th day   “…because I realize I love you.” Whispers.
“So please wake up. I promised you I wouldn’t leave you alone. Now why are you leaving me alone…” I can hear clearer.
My eyelids feel heavy, I try harder.
A white ceiling light. I see you, I see you now, you clutch my hand tighter.

“She was literally crushed, with all the internal hemorrhage, organ rupture and bone fractures,” the doctors say.
“But they say you’ll live, you’ll recover one day.”
I look into your eyes, “Why did you stay?”
“Because I promised, I won’t let you slip away.”


Written on 13th March 2014.

This poem is about a girl confessing her love to her crush, but unfortunately gets into a car accident shortly after. She did not say “I love you” to her crush because she was afraid it would break the fabric of their friendship. I especially want to discuss the “anchor”. Have you ever felt so untethered to anyone or anything that you might just drift into outer space one day? And you know that one person you care so much about is the only thing that’s keeping you going on, refraining you from giving up; that very person is your anchor. You will not hesitate to give up anything, give up the world, even your life just to be sure that person is happy, healthy. That person is the only meaning that you’re still alive, and that you’ll continue to live, just to be there to provide the best for him. And it’s okay that he doesn’t want to be with you, because your love is deep enough to surpass the urge of becoming his partner. You don’t need him to love you back; all you want is for him to live a happy live with the girl he loves, and he has all your unconditional blessings. Bittersweet, but mostly sweet.

When I read this poem to my friends, they thought it was too ominous like I was predicting my own death, or punishing myself. I can’t remember whether it was inspired by a dream or a vision I visualized in my mind, but I truly was going through a tough time when it was written.

The latest Poetry 101 Rehab prompt is “End”. Instead of a negative perspective, I’d like to view an end as a beginning to a new story. In this poem, the girl waking up from a coma and her crush’s realization/confession are, in a sense, a rebirth that leads both of them into the next chapter of their lives. I can’t express enough how perfectly it responds to the prompt, and demonstrates the spirit of Easter, which is “A New Beginning” and “Rebirth”. Just perfect timing.

Psychedelic

A cold night in September, the party of dance.
I followed you in, loud music blast;
The crowd was rushing, strobe lights dazed me like a trance.
You were standing in front; on me, your shadow cast.

You went to get alcohol, but that wasn’t what I need.
Passion, loneliness, ecstasy, distance, filled the air;
I watched your eyes’ glisten, you moved to the beat.
It was your life that I couldn’t share.

You leant down, tried to whisper in my ears.
Your scent, the closeness, my beating heart.
Yet the crowd separated us, my worry appeared.
From behind, you caught my hand, you said, “I will never let us part.”

Lights went out, you kissed me on the lips;
You were too drunk, I was too sober.
Tomorrow, outside your window, when the sunlight frisks,
Is it me that you will remember.


Inspired by Welcome Week Concert, night of 11th September;
Written on 12th September 2014, 0108.