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Cageless Sky: Once Upon a Heart

I hear the wind rustling
As I try to protect her from afar.

Strong and brave,
Determined and independent,
Fearless and protective;
That’s how she seems.
Yet underneath the short sandy blonde threads,
Beyond the dark blue eyes of the calm night sky,
Loneliness, sorrow, pain,
Are what I see.

“Watch out!” I shout as I throw myself in front of her,
Hold her tight in my arms as we both fall onto the pavement.
Skin is burning at my forearms and elbows;
Blood slowly trickles from my wounds;
But I can’t stay.
I run and run and run
Till I’m sure she has lost sight of me;
Till I’m sure she can no longer find me.

I hide in a dark alley,
“Forgive me.”

Gauze wrapping around my arms;
Her words echo in my mind as I close my eyes.
“…Who are you?”
I’m just a raindrop who didn’t know what purpose I carry onto this world;
Until you struck my heart like a lightning.
With that flash of light,
I was reborn.
Reborn on this land, to protect you.

If only I could take away your burden,
The destined path which you didn’t choose;
If only I could walk through the thorny forest for you,
And return the future that you want, the dream that is deprived from you, into your hands.

Once upon your burdened heart.

I try to run away, but this time, it’s too late.
“Don’t leave.
Don’t run away like last time.”

Her voice is an arrow that shoots right through me.

“I know who you are.”

How naive of me,
To believe as long as I kept myself in the dark,
She would never find out.

Look up at the sky,
Is this the end already…

“You’re my guardian angel.
You have been watching over me,
Trying to protect me, haven’t you.”

“I’m too broken to be called an angel.
I’m sorry.”
There’s no turning back now;
I can only walk away, as far as I can;
Otherwise, my tears will fall.

Her sudden grip on my wrist.
The first drop of crystal along the silhouette of my face.

“Then, I don’t need an angel.”

Her arms on my waist;
Her chin resting on my shoulder.
Her warmth is flowing into me from behind;
Her hug is so tight, I can feel her heart pounding against mine.

As the wind gently brushes our cheeks in this golden sunset,
Our strands of hair are entwined.
Just like our lives.

“I just need you.”


Written on 13th October 2014; second installment in the trilogy.


Prequel: Once Upon a Time

Cageless Sky: Once Upon a Time

Darkness.

I saw darkness wherever I go.
My only companion, was the shadow that falls behind me.

There was no dream in my mind.
There was no hope that I could find.
There was no light in my eyes.
There was no love in my life.

Paralyzed by fear,
Suffocated by tears,
Drowned by despair,
Incinerated by self-hatred,
Shattered by pain.

Soulless.

I belonged to darkness.
My only choice, was imprisonment in the cage I built; I was my own slave.

Have dream or not, why should it matter.
Hold on to hope or fall apart, why should it matter.
Light or dark, why should it matter.
Be loved, or remain unloved, why should it matter.

Life, death. Why should I persist.

Meaningless.

I was blind.
Until the day I saw her.


Written on 8th October 2014; first installment in the trilogy.

Crush

4.36 pm         We’re walking on the pavement,
Both are quiet because of what just happened.
The story was told, the story of sentiments;
You were speechless, couldn’t utter a sentence.

4.37 pm         A car is swerving.
“Watch out!” People are screaming.
We look behind us, the vehicle is clashing;
I push you away, but the sky is dimming.

4.39 pm         “Stay with me. Don’t fall asleep,” you say.
I’m stuck between the car and the brick wall, “I’m sorry, I didn’t think it’d end this way.
I want to tell you the three words I meant to say…”
“You can say them after you recover.” “Then please hold my hand, so I don’t slip away…”

5.09 pm         Bright light is shone at my eyes, blinding.
Blink once, a paramedic, I can’t hear anything;
Blink again, I turn my head to the right, you’re tearing.
Darkness. The last thing I feel, is our hands, holding.

The next day “…because I promised her I won’t let her go, won’t let her slip away.” Distant conversations.
I’m sleepy, couldn’t open my eyes due to exhaustion.
“Sleep, my child. Don’t have to wake up.” God’s proposition,
But the warmth felt by my hand anchors me on Earth, my heart’s salvation.

The 7th day   “…because I realize I love you.” Whispers.
“So please wake up. I promised you I wouldn’t leave you alone. Now why are you leaving me alone…” I can hear clearer.
My eyelids feel heavy, I try harder.
A white ceiling light. I see you, I see you now, you clutch my hand tighter.

“She was literally crushed, with all the internal hemorrhage, organ rupture and bone fractures,” the doctors say.
“But they say you’ll live, you’ll recover one day.”
I look into your eyes, “Why did you stay?”
“Because I promised, I won’t let you slip away.”


Written on 13th March 2014.

This poem is about a girl confessing her love to her crush, but unfortunately gets into a car accident shortly after. She did not say “I love you” to her crush because she was afraid it would break the fabric of their friendship. I especially want to discuss the “anchor”. Have you ever felt so untethered to anyone or anything that you might just drift into outer space one day? And you know that one person you care so much about is the only thing that’s keeping you going on, refraining you from giving up; that very person is your anchor. You will not hesitate to give up anything, give up the world, even your life just to be sure that person is happy, healthy. That person is the only meaning that you’re still alive, and that you’ll continue to live, just to be there to provide the best for him. And it’s okay that he doesn’t want to be with you, because your love is deep enough to surpass the urge of becoming his partner. You don’t need him to love you back; all you want is for him to live a happy live with the girl he loves, and he has all your unconditional blessings. Bittersweet, but mostly sweet.

When I read this poem to my friends, they thought it was too ominous like I was predicting my own death, or punishing myself. I can’t remember whether it was inspired by a dream or a vision I visualized in my mind, but I truly was going through a tough time when it was written.

The latest Poetry 101 Rehab prompt is “End”. Instead of a negative perspective, I’d like to view an end as a beginning to a new story. In this poem, the girl waking up from a coma and her crush’s realization/confession are, in a sense, a rebirth that leads both of them into the next chapter of their lives. I can’t express enough how perfectly it responds to the prompt, and demonstrates the spirit of Easter, which is “A New Beginning” and “Rebirth”. Just perfect timing.

Psychedelic

A cold night in September, the party of dance.
I followed you in, loud music blast;
The crowd was rushing, strobe lights dazed me like a trance.
You were standing in front; on me, your shadow cast.

You went to get alcohol, but that wasn’t what I need.
Passion, loneliness, ecstasy, distance, filled the air;
I watched your eyes’ glisten, you moved to the beat.
It was your life that I couldn’t share.

You leant down, tried to whisper in my ears.
Your scent, the closeness, my beating heart.
Yet the crowd separated us, my worry appeared.
From behind, you caught my hand, you said, “I will never let us part.”

Lights went out, you kissed me on the lips;
You were too drunk, I was too sober.
Tomorrow, outside your window, when the sunlight frisks,
Is it me that you will remember.


Inspired by Welcome Week Concert, night of 11th September;
Written on 12th September 2014, 0108.

Routine

Monday
Putting on my gloves
To go on our first date.
So I won’t get too many butterflies,
When our hands are intertwined by fate.

Tuesday
Decorate a stunning mask
To attend the masquerade.
He can’t see through my heart,
As we dance the night away.

Wednesday
Wearing my raincoat,
The cloud, the sky are grey.
We’ll run in the rain and puddles;
Our laughter awaits.

Thursday
He likes mountains and woods,
But it is the beach I crave.
We’re building a sandcastle
With my shovel in his crate.

Friday
Getting the food he likes,
Tomorrow is the big day.
Nervous and exhilarated,
But I’m keeping my secret at bay.

Saturday
He picks a picnic site
That is quiet and faraway.
As the poison sets in,
He is the one I slay.

Sunday
I wake up with a smile,
Seeing the sunlight strays.
After cleaning up,
I know I will meet someone new today.


Written in response to Poetry 101 Rehab prompt: Habit.

Apparently the latest prompt is actually “Right”, but I didn’t realize it until after completing my poem. So I’m just going to go with it.

My poems usually are about romance or love, but I have been watching (too much) Criminal Minds recently so I decide to spice it up with a twist of serial murder. Guess I just like to be dramatic 😛 Do you like writing fiction? What was your first thought immediately after reading my poem? Did you like the twist at the end? Let me know in the comments!

Let’s Build the Place

In response to The Daily Post’s writing prompt: “Places.”

Today, we’re going to build the place of your dream…

First of all, let’s start by choosing the main material: fresh water in a pond or lake, sand by the seashore, trees in a woods, grass on a prairie, cement in a city. You name it, we’ve got it 😉

Now that we’ve set the foundation, let’s add a building to the picture. As an artist/designer (another way of saying self-proclaimed architect), I’ll need to know what the purpose or major function of the building is. If it is for housing people, I would suggest a house, a mansion, an apartment, a castle, a ship or cruise on the sea, a tree house or cave if you like nature, or even a hotel for your occasional vacations. If it is for business, you can take a look at our catalog (a.k.a. the view of your city or street) and pick your ideal model.

Okay, so far we’ve got most of the blueprint done. Let’s add some life to it so it won’t be boring! Since it is the place of your dream, I’m assuming you will be in the picture. There are other characters you can choose to be implemented, such as your family, your friends, your colleagues or boss (this option isn’t very popular, I’ll admit). Magical characters are available as well (e.g. Professor Dumbledore, fairy godmother, evil witch, etc.), although not many people know about this option. If you like animals, we have a variety of choices for you, from typical ones such as dogs and cats, to extraordinary, even mythical creatures such as dragons and unicorns. Please consult an ecologist for more info on biological interactions to ensure the biodiversity and ecobalance are well maintained.

We’re all set for creating a story in this place of your dream. Don’t know where to start? Here, I’ll show you an example: the place in my dream… Once upon a time…

Party Knight

“Ugh, I don’t know what to wear…” I stared at my reflection in the mirror, wearing a white sweater and a mint green skirt, then at the pile of clothes on my bed.

“It’s just a party,” roommate said, leaning against my bedroom door frame. “Exactly! It’s a party and I don’t have fancy party clothes!”

“Okay, don’t think of it as a party party; think of it as going to a friend’s place, but there are other guests that you don’t know and they serve alcohol.”

“You know I don’t drink.” “That’s not the point,” she rolled her eyes. “The point is, be yourself, and be confident in yourself. I think you look great in these.”

“You think so?” “Yea. C’mon we’re gonna be late!” I gave my reflection one last glance before she grabbed my arm and rushed down the stairs. I hoped I wouldn’t regret this.

“See, it isn’t as bad as you think! No loud music, no drunk fights, no random strangers making out-” “Alright alright, I get your point. I don’t need any more details,” sighing silently as we settled in a corner of the dining room, “I just don’t feel comfortable in these kind of environment.”

“You just need to warm up,” roommate tried to assure me. “Want me to get you any drink?” “Orange juice will be nice, thanks…Why are you looking at me like this?” “Seriously? Orange juice? At a party? I don’t even know if they have- Alright, orange juice it is! No one stands a chance in front of your puppy-dog eyes,” she grumbled. “I’m not making the puppy-dog eyes! This is my default expression,” I protested. “This is why you can be cute but not hot, hon.” “Thanks for reminding me I’m the exact antonym of hot,” this time it was me who grumbled. She chuckled, “stay here; I’ll be right back!”

I watched her went into the kitchen, while silently praying that no one would notice me. Then, I saw him. There he was, standing next to the sofa, talking with his friends. My heart pounded a little louder.

Just when he turned and our eyes met, someone stroked my waist. A person whom I’d never met was on my left now, “did I scare you? You jumped a little,” he smirked. “Yea a bit.” So my prayers didn’t go through. “You here alone?” “No, my friend went to get-” A sudden burst of loud music interrupted me. A few people emerged from another room, which was apparently the “dance floor” of this party. And there she was—my roommate—dancing amongst other guests.

Thanks for ditching me, friend.

“First time here?” He asked. “How’d you know?” “True partiers don’t dress like you.” I looked around: high heels, skin-tight jeans, tank tops, club dresses, smokey eyes. Perhaps the least I could have done was to borrow a lipstick from my roommate, and put on high heels instead of boots. “That obvious, huh,” I lowered my head and started pulling at the hem of my sweater unconsciously.

“You know what you should do? You should kiss me.” “What?” I looked at him in disbelief. “It’d be fun!” “I-I don’t see how it could be fun in any way,” I was starting to regret coming to this party. “Life is short and we should enjoy ourselves! Look, it’s just a kiss. What’s the worst that could happen?” “First of all, I’m gonna hate myself for kissing someone I don’t know,” I desperately tried to distance myself from this person, and when I looked up, he was still there talking to his friends. “Secondly-” “My name is Scott. Now you know me,” he grabbed my wrist and pulled me in. “No I can’t! I can’t kiss someone who isn’t my boyfriend!” I wrestled my wrist to no avail. “It’s not like I’m asking you to make out with me. C’mon!” He wrapped his arm firmly around my waist, to my dislike. “I really can’t. I grow up in a conservative family and I can’t allow myself to do that,” I turned to look at where he and his friends were, but he was nowhere to be found. No one was going to rescue me now.

“There are other girls here who are more willing to have fun,” I pushed as hard as I could, but he was holding my body tightly against his. The more I struggled and the more desperate I was, the more amused and interested he seemed.

Please stop. Please let go of me. Please.

“Hey, I got you some water.” His voice. I thought he had left. Distracted, Scott loosened his grip. I quickly stepped back, and he moved in to stand slightly between me and Scott. “Everything ok?” He asked, without looking at me but Scott. “Yea. This is Scott. He and I just met in this party.” “Nice to meet you, Scott,” expressionlessly, he extended his arm for a handshake. “Nice to meet you too,” Scott shook his hand exasperatedly, “thought you said you came alone,” he turned to me. “I told you my friend was-” “Whatever. Gotta get back to my friends,” Scott walked off, and gave me a last glance of disdain. He stood in to shield me from his scornful look.

“Hey, you okay?” Still in shock by what happened, I didn’t hear his concern. A muffled whimper escaped my lips and I flinched when he held my wrist. “Yea I’m okay,” I tried to conceal it, but he already pulled up my sleeve. And there was the red mark of Scott’s grip. “What is wrong with him!” “H-He probably just had too much to drink…” “Stop defending him.” “I’m not! I just…I don’t want you to get mad…” The sentence trailed off. “Thanks for getting me out of it. I thought you had left,” I couldn’t look at him; those sweet caramel eyes mellowed me every time. “Couldn’t leave you alone with that guy. God knows what he would do to you.”

Please don’t get angry; anger doesn’t suit the tenderness swirling in your eyes.

“I didn’t expect to see you here,” his tone softened. “I didn’t expect myself to be here either,” my bitter smile. “You’re too kind, too innocent. People will take advantage of you,” he gently tucked my hair behind my ear, accidentally brushing the helix. I prayed that he didn’t notice my ears were burning.

“I’m sorry,” unconsciously, I started pulling at my sweater’s hem again, along with biting my lip, unintentionally. “No, it isn’t your fault.”

The lights went out all of a sudden. Then came the blast of dance music. So the dance floor had spilled into the dining room as well, or more precisely, the whole house.

Fright overtook me as the darkness had befallen. He pulled me in, “it’s okay. I’m here.”

And just like that, I was buried in his arms entirely. His warmth enveloped me from the blurry crowd; his scent filled the air I breathed; his voice dispelled the wild noises in the room.

The rest of the world had disappeared. It was just me and him now.

“You shouldn’t go to parties alone.” “My friend was with me…” I felt like I was melting.

Am I getting drunk? No I’m pretty sure I didn’t have any alcohol…

“I meant, you shouldn’t go without me,” he tightened his hug.

“Why?”

He whispered into my ear, “because I need to be there to protect you.”


Inspired by a dream I had last Wednesday night.

For the record, I don’t know anyone named Scott (yet). This name randomly popped up in my mind when I was writing and I just went with it. Apologies to all the good Scott’s out there 😛

I was trying to convey how socially awkward the protagonist was, and how heedful and tender her crush was by him noticing she didn’t have a drink, knowing she didn’t like alcohol and brought her water, in addition to saving her from Scott. I’m not sure if these little details were sufficiently expressed though… Please feel free to comment and tell me if you like or what you think about the short story! ❤